Everyone always says that, but let’s be honest. It is easier for some. Or maybe we all get a fair shot, and some people just know how to play their cards better. Yes, I definitely think that has a lot to do with it. Negativity. It creeps up on me and grabs my face, commanding all my attention. Well, how could I not look? So I do. And I have been, for several months now. But it’s not getting me anywhere. I’m still sitting in the same place, waiting for my  life to start. Something has to change. I have to change.

I know it’s all about energy. The universe rewards massive action. MASSIVE. I’m a bit scared, and don’t know where that core issue stems from. In all reality I really have nothing to fear. I have nothing to fear. Nothing. My goal must be to focus instead on depositing positive energy in my life. How? I feel like I need church. Not for religion, since I abandoned mine years ago and don’t really see myself ever going back. Say what you will, and I do, but church is uplifting. It’s positive, empowering, encouraging. And I need that right now, since I’ve fallen a bit into the dark side and can’t seem to find my way out of the murky abyss.

I have nothing to fear.